Why Does The Grass ALWAYS Have to be Greener?!

I don't know what my current obsession with mastering the "comic book" style drawings is all about. I'm OBSESSED and it's eating me ALIVE. I honestly can't think about anything else! I keep looking at artists on Deviant Art and making myself extremely depressed.

Here are some examples of work I am EXTREMELY jealous of:

http://kingmong.deviantart.com/art/Wing-of-Doom-86648304
http://adamhughes.deviantart.com/art/Storm-129666864
http://jujika.deviantart.com/art/The-Workstation-2-19440784
http://jujika.deviantart.com/art/Mage-77325398

And then I look at my crappy work and I feel like THE worst artist EVER. I would TOTALLY trade talents. Who the hell cares if I can copy a picture. Whoopdee FRIGGIN doo... My art bores me so much. I wish I could take some of the images in my head and spit them out onto a piece of paper and have them look like some of the work I posted above.

I've bought several books recently to try and help me achieve this goal. Like "Anatomy for Fantasy Artists" by Gleen Fabry. "Imaginative Realism" by James Gurney. "Superheroes and Beyond: How to Draw the Leading & Supporting Characters of Today's Comics" by Christopher Hart. And "Drawing Cutting Edge Anatomy: The Ultimate Reference Guide for Comic Book Artists." also by Christopher Hart.

These books are INCREDIBLE, but because I suck, I just end up copying characters out of the book. I can EASILY draw any "comic book" character IF I'M LOOKING AT IT. But drawing something out of my head ends up looking nothing like I want and I end up trashing it.

I think my MAIN problem is coloring, to be honest. I have several pencil drawings that I LOVE. But then when I attempt to color it in Photoshop... LAWD... it's a hot mess.

I WISH one of these artists would take me under their wing and TEACH ME IN PERSON... or even just let me sit there and WATCH THEM. But I don't know ANY Comic Book artists and I highly doubt anyone would ever want to teach me or show me their secret.

Why does the grass ALWAYS have to be so much greener when it's on the other side?! WHY?! *cries*